| The Secrets of a Beautiful Life |
Chapter 20 |
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There is another phase of the comfort we have in Christ’s perfect knowledge of us. The world is not charitable toward our faults. Men are quick to note our inconsistencies. They see our faults with unfriendly eye. They are not patient with our infirmities. They easily doubt our sincerity when we fail to live up to our profession. Then sometimes men misunderstand us even when in our hearts we are really most faithful. Jesus Himself was continually misjudged and misunderstood. Men took His noblest and divinest acts, and made them appear unworthy and even disreputable. The disciples must not hope to escape the misrepresentation and the maligning which the Master Himself had to endure. There are few good men who are not at some time in their life misjudged or falsely accused. But in all such experiences we know there is One who knows the truth about us, who is always charitable in His judgment, who never misunderstands us nor misjudges us. When we have sinned and failed, yet knowing in our heart that we are repentant and sincere, or when we are misunderstood or falsely accused, we can look up with confidence into Christ’s face and say, “Lord, Thos knowest.” There is wonderful comfort in such cases in the consciousness that He understands all.
This love that is in the heart of Christ is a wonderful love. It is a love that never tires of us. We are not sure always of such patience and endurance in human affection. We complain if our friends do not return as deep, rich, and constant love as we give them. We are hurt at any evidence of the ebbing of love in them. Human love is ofttimes chilled and even repelled by the discovery of things unworthy, traits of character that are not beautiful, acts that are not right.
We are not sure always that human friends will love us still when they know all about us. We could not trust the world with the perfect knowledge that Christ has of our real inner life. There are records in the secret history of most of us that we would not dare spread out before the eyes of men. There are things in us — jealousies, envyings, selfish desires, earthward turnings, unholy affections — which we would not feel safe in laying bare, even to our dearest and most patient friends. But Christ knows all. Yet we need not be afraid to trust Him with all the innermost frailties, faults, and failures of our life. His love will not be turned back by these repulsive things while it finds in us even the feeblest true love for Him.
“He knows all, yet loves us better than He knows.”
In one sense it is not easy for Christ to save us. We struggle and resist, and there is much in us that persistently disputes His sway. It was the prayer of a saintly man, “Lord, save me in spite of myself.” We must all be saved, it would seem, if ever, in spite of ourselves. St. Paul found a law in his members for ever opposing the impulses of the new nature in him, making him do the things he would not. The only way Christ can save any of us is by never giving us up, never letting go His hold upon us, never allowing our stubborn earthward striving to drag us out of His hands.
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